Hummingbirds

It helps if you don’t overthink migration,
nor anything else when it comes to moving:
how imperceptibly the angle of the sun
changes in late July in Saanich, on Saltspring Island.

If it were time to go
you’d have the creeping feeling
the meeting is in another room,
an anxious dream, departmental reports,
you without pants, an inappropriate hard-on.
Everyone else is leaving, you’re still in the
break room with half a bad sandwich,
cooling coffee, sugar on your breath,
the tides, you realize, pale as pupae.

There seem to be fewer now, at the feeder.
They still collect, tail-end of August,
Rufous young, fighters, each one a small
persimmon, turned oaks, autumnal fruit,
a tubular pulse.

I read somewhere hummingbirds beat their
wings ninety times a second, faster when
they’re infatuated, their metabolisms
gyroscopes, so blindingly quick we seem
never to move, eerie, plaster-still.
Though /
the meteorologists are weeping millibars,
warm water, the flood’s ransacking
Green Mountain and the gurgling Toe River,
minutes of the summer’s summit drying
the spider legs that were Lake Mead.

They envy our immobility, these traveling
birds, the dedication we have to our craft,
even our trigger fingers fixed, while
around their fragile heads beats
the beautiful ruin of the evening.

Bees’ Nest

We found cool,
creeping in the pine and eucalyptus,
stealing through hidden spaces
when the weekdays dragged,
and summer staked a place
on every bleached
beach towel.

I remember following her foot
on fecund earth
like still-damp coffee grounds.
A welt of outstretched limbs,
the taste of shade and sweat
on our noses and our tongues,
and sun and devils in our faces.

Alison was California,
like the copses,
a vein sprung
from subterranean lines
that pushed up trees
and pushed out beaches
into their matrimonial air.

I remember winding by
the Spanish tower
in the bloom of geraniums
always dying.
I remember her smile
after school, a wink
and a disclaimer:
a mushroom invitation,
California sweet and scarlet.

The bees’ nest was a stump,
an old oak, rotted and sealed
and smelling of resin.
Friday morning, off from summer school,
we heaped mud and leaves
to stop the migration of the bees.

Then Alison with a stick
and the rich swarm
that burst from the wood like fluid,
while she cried and cried
and ran with her insect headdress,
pushing me away and crying “Help me!”

I put out my hand to help,
but she was too concerned
with punishment.