I’m Not Going to Say This Twice (but if I do, I’m going to add more birds)

Be sure in your art.
By all means be tapped out, hard up,
on-your-beam-ends poor if you are,
but when you dance,
dance mansions, parks, chestnut trees
with pale pyramid flowers.
Flex an arm: banknotes
flutter from your fingers
like swallows. Mint motion.

Even your journals grant
principalities to princes.
The huge coffered door of your hall
bends and groans with the press
of secretaries and goatherds
clutching spice boxes,
ranch hands with gold watches,
bluebird navies, teak-timbered ships.
Go out to the harbor this morning
and swing your ideas against
their sides. Send them on their way.

Be nervous if you must,
flop-sweat stopped
like a drowned bottle,
but your hands when they draw,
draw water from rock —
white pelicans,
the most self-absorbed things in the sky,
wheel and rest at your feet,
canyons open,
the horizon duplicates itself
infinitely,
dark for the pearls of stars.

Lack faith if you do,
but your voice, when you sing along,
peals from Spanish mission towers,
beams creak with the weight of bells,
dun valleys fill and green,
dwarf pines whistle and whisper.
Keep your head down:
vesper sparrows have made a nest
in your faithless hair.

It has always been that way.
The monks have gathered for Matins
and the abbot is on the stair.
He has your arms and eyes, your hands.
And the old voice —
the one we put together
from sewn leather, trail dust,
sage, salt, wind whipped,
like a prayer —
lifts, hums, moves
the whole goddamn building
from the rafters to the crypt.

Hummingbirds

It helps if you don’t overthink migration,
nor anything else when it comes to moving:
how imperceptibly the angle of the sun
changes in late July in Saanich, on Saltspring Island.

If it were time to go
you’d have the creeping feeling
the meeting is in another room,
an anxious dream, departmental reports,
you without pants, an inappropriate hard-on.
Everyone else is leaving, you’re still in the
break room with half a bad sandwich,
cooling coffee, sugar on your breath,
the tides, you realize, pale as pupae.

There seem to be fewer now, at the feeder.
They still collect, tail-end of August,
Rufous young, fighters, each one a small
persimmon, turned oaks, autumnal fruit,
a tubular pulse.

I read somewhere hummingbirds beat their
wings ninety times a second, faster when
they’re infatuated, their metabolisms
gyroscopes, so blindingly quick we seem
never to move, eerie, plaster-still.
Though /
the meteorologists are weeping millibars,
warm water, the flood’s ransacking
Green Mountain and the gurgling Toe River,
minutes of the summer’s summit drying
the spider legs that were Lake Mead.

They envy our immobility, these traveling
birds, the dedication we have to our craft,
even our trigger fingers fixed, while
around their fragile heads beats
the beautiful ruin of the evening.